Confession time

So for Christmas this year my Mom got me a devo book because she is awesome and she knows me. It's called God Girl and I started it today. It's a year long journey that I have committed to. Now day one's devo was about confession and let me tell you I sort of rolled my eyes at this at first. I mean Catholics do confession not this Southern Baptist girl but, as I continued to read I realized confession is something this girl really needed to do right now. I'm afraid. I'm afraid and I have began to let this fear control me. I have let this fear turn a beautiful God given calling into something twisted and seemingly unreachable for me. I have been praying like I trust God but worrying like I don't (thank you Jacob for that). So tonight I confessed to God that I am just plain old scared to do what he has asked me to do. The task seems too big and I seem way too small. Well this brought me back to that passage in Exodus when Moses is telling God that he cannot tell the Egyptians about God because he is not an eloquent speaker but God's reply sends chills down my spine. He tells Moses in Exodus 4:12 "Now go; I will help you speak and teach you what to say." That's so true for us today. Maybe you're not struggling with speaking to people like Moses but, this passage reminds us that if we are doing God's will and living out his plans he isn't just going to abandon us. He wants us to be successful and lets face it, we just can't do that without him. So yeah I am too small to conquer the big tasks ahead of me but, God is bigger than anything I can possibly be faced with and knowing I am in God's will I am flooded with the relief that my Abba won't leave me and that he will conquer all. And that my friends gives me the strength to do what I can't and the courage to face my fears.