What am I holding onto?

It's been a while. I guess I just havent felt inspired to write but, tonight I feel like I should. I was sitting in my room tonight, thinking about how I miss my friends. I haven't seen much of them lately, we've all been busy, and I was hoping to talk to one of them tonight and it didn't happen and I was sad. As I set there sad trying to focus on a quiet time with Abba, I just kept thinking to the story of the rich young ruler. We all know the story, The rich young ruler asks Jesus what it takes to follow him and Jesus tells him to go sell everything he owned and he became sad because he was a wealthy man and he valued that more than following Christ. When I think about this story I always think that there is no worldly possesion I own that I wouldn't give up to follow Christ. I don't have huge amounts of stuff but, I'm quite blessed and still there is no posession that I wouln't give up to follow Him. Tonight though, I was smacked in the face with the fact that I hold so tightly to my friendships and if God asked me to give them up, I honestly don't know what I would do. Matthew 19:22 says:

"When the young man heard this, he went away sad because he had great wealth."

I don't want that to be my story. I don't want to go away sad. God has blessed me with a wealth of great friends who love Him and follow Him but, if any of them are going to keep me out of heaven then I want to be done with them. It's not fair to God and all He's done for me to focus on my friends and hold onto them when all I really need to hold onto is my Abba.

Abba, Show me how to love you first and greatest. I want to make you my all. Everything else I have, including my friendships, are nothing compared to having you. Remind me of that daily Abba so that I don't walk away from you sad. Be my only joy Abba. I want to love and follow you with everything I am forever.