Not worthy yet

I'm very very human...good thing to know huh? Sure am glad I'm not some sort of alien or robot right? But all sarcasm aside, I am human and as a human I am all about myself. I get consumed in jealousy,relationships,friends,bad attitudes, and all sorts of other worldly behaviors and I'm sad to say I often let these things distract me from my relationship with Abba. It's been a terrible battle in me these lats few days. I just keep getting in my own way. Every time I start to grow in Him I have a lustful thought or jealous reaction and I just bring myself down. It's an absolutley insane pattern that has had me spinning. The even crazier part is that even when I get distracted my God pulls me back to Him and speaks to me. He inspires me in His word daily. I've had awesome devo times and really great times of worship. God is moving in me like never before and the crazy part is I'm distracted a lot of the time...I just imagine what He would do if I stopped letting the world in and gave my all to Him. Well I'm not going to just imagine it anymore. I want to walk it out. Philippians 1:27 says"Whatever happens, conduct yourself in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ." I have not been doing that but, I'm going to try my hardest from now on. I don't want any space between my and Abba therefore I will no longer be letting the world get in the way. This way I can do my best to be worthy of the gospel.