Who knows you?

I have very few friends. I know that's a weird way to start a post and I know myabe that makes me sound like a loser but, what I mean is I have a lot of aquaintances but, I have very few true friends. This is because I have a really hard time letting people in. I push people away the second things start to get too personal for me. I guess I'm afraid to let people care and my few true friends are those who don't let me push them away. They're the people that put up with the crazy that is me and actually take the time to love me, and trust me this task is not easy, and I will love these people always. They are true gifts from God that I do not deserve at all. Here is something else I don't deserve, my friend Abba. He is the greatest friend I could ever ask for because while I have the greatest friends on the planet, they are human and they let me down occasionally but, not my God. He knows me better than anyone. He knows when I feel lonely and he pulls me to him harder. He knows how many tears I've cried, he knows every hair on my head, the number of times I've laughed or smiled. He knows all these crazy things about me and that blows my mind. It's one thing to call him my Savior but it's another thing all together to call him my Friend but, that's what he is. If that doesn't blow your mind think about this, the creator of the world, the God who gives you every breath, the only one who controls life, He KNOWS you! He knows every thought you've ever had and every word you've ever said. I dare you to find one human who knows those things about you. Even your parents who, as much as we hate to admit it, probably know you best,even they aren't going to be able to tell you everything you've ever said. So why not let him in? I struggle with pushing Him away on a regular basis but, I cannot deny that it brings me the greatest joy to know that my Abba knows me, and even after that He still loves me! My mind is blown guys. Honestly it makes me want to know Him more. I want to know all I can about Him. He knows me, it only seems fair:)