Conflict

I hate conflict. I really really hate it. While yes, I love to be sassy and I can play fight for hours, I hate real, honest conflict. I would rather people just like me all the time. This is a real weakness of mine because when I know I'm on the verge of some really unpleasant conflict with someone I completely shut down and fall apart. I am scared to upset people and I hate getting upset myself. Plus conflict can really bring out the worst in me. Well right now I'm on the verge of some serious conflict with someone I care about a lot. I'm afraid that after we talk, we won't be friends anymore and that scares me. I'm praying really hard that my big, strong, mighty God will be all in it. I want His will to be done not mine. I'm also finding some really good comfort in Hebrews 13:6 which says "So we say with confidence, The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can human beings do to me?". It's a great realization. I don't have to be afraid because my Abba will not leave me. While yes, it will probably still be a difficult talk and I don't want to lose a good friend and mentor, I know my Abba has me. Even if it hurts, I can say with confidence The Lord is my helper. He is in me and He will deal with the conflict because while I cannot handle it, My God can and why would I try to handle anything without Him?