His Plans

If you know me at all you know that I can be a bit of a control freak. I hate feeling out of control. To keep from feeling this way I have become a planner. I plan everything out. I hate "going with the flow". Just ask my close friends and I'm sure they will tell you just how true that is. I have to remain in control. This is perhaps why cannot stop trying to plan my future. High school is almost done for me and so naturally next comes college. I know what school I will be attending but, my knowledge about my future pretty much ends there. Now obviously I know I have been called into missions but, I don't know how that's going to happen. I constantly sit around trying to figure these things out but, this week God has reminded me over and over that He has a plan and because His plan is perfect, I don't need my own plan. This is a hard concept for me because while I trust God with my everything, I HATE not knowing what's going to happen. I have been reading in Ephesians this week and in Chapter 1 verses 9-10 Paul says "He thought of everything, provided for everything we could possibly need, letting us in on the plans he took such delight in making. He set it all out before us in Christ, a long-range plan in which everything would be brought together and summed up in him, everything in deepest heaven, everything on planet earth." My plans don't matter because I have given my life to God. He makes the plans. They are made, not to make me happy or feel secure but, to bring Him glory and to make His name known to the nations. It's not about me and what I plan. My need for control doesn't matter because I'm not supposed to be in control. I'm too human. My all knowing, perfect, fair, loving Abba has my life in His hands. So while yes, I am still apprehensive to live a "go with the flow" life style, I have peace knowing that my God has a plan and it's way better than I can even imagine.