Love

As a teenage girl I often dream about falling in love. Not the kind of "love" I find everyday in my highschool. I have no desire to have just any relationship with just any guy and broadcast it in the hallways. What I want is real love with the one God has prepared for me. Honestly I cannot wait to find my future husband and I pray for him a lot. I already love him and I have no idea who he is. It's crazy that some guy I don't even know can make my heart do flip flops. Well lately I have been reminded just how much God loves me. So why don't I get butterflies when I think about Him? 1 John 4:8 says"Whoever does not love does not know God because God IS love." God is love...If God is love, if he is the very definition of the thing that I most desire and I'm not falling madly in love with Him then something must be off. I want love so badly and here is my God, who loves me more than I can fathom. He saved my from Hell, He blesses me daily, He has given me so much yet I forget to love Him. It's crazy! I get so caught up in my own fairy tale fantasy that I completely lose sight of the love I have in my Abba. So I asked God to show me how to fall in love with Him. I don't really know where this is going to lead me but, I pray that in the end I will have a passion for God and I will love Him first. I still want to find my future husband but, I want to love God first and when I find that special guy the love I have left will be all his but, I want it to be a fraction of the love I have to give my Abba.